Sunday, November 27, 2016

Day 24

Day 24
November 27

Miles: .79
Steps: 1,918

Today kinda sucks. I'm feeling alone. I can't explain why I feel that way. I just do.

It doesn't help that I'm watching Gilmore Girls: A Year in the Life, during which I am continuously jumping back and forth between relating to Lorelai and Rory.

Then in the summer episode, I burst into tears (like an idiot) during the Stars Hollow musical scene (which is such a ridiculous storyline) as Sutton Foster sings.

"Maybe everyone can't have the dream... 
Oh, I am not unbreakable. I am breaking right now. 
I need to be unbreakable. Somehow.  
It's never or now."

I've already made the decision to embrace the now.

I just wish the now felt a bit more stable.

Alright (violently shakes head from side to side).

Enough with the fear. 

Enough with the doubt.

Enough with the self pity!

It's time to channel a better version of "Now or Never."

Kendrick Lamar... take it away!

"Look at the newer me, fate pursuing me. 
I can feel the energy in the air. 
It feel like I'm supposed to be here...  
I know it's my time and it's now or never.
Shine so bright, I light the night.  
And it feels so right, ain't nothin' better."

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