Today kinda sucks. I'm feeling alone. I can't explain why I feel that way. I just do.
It doesn't help that I'm watching Gilmore Girls: A Year in the Life, during which I am continuously jumping back and forth between relating to Lorelai and Rory.
Then in the summer episode, I burst into tears (like an idiot) during the Stars Hollow musical scene (which is such a ridiculous storyline) as Sutton Foster sings.
"Maybe everyone can't have the dream...
Oh, I am not unbreakable. I am breaking right now.
I need to be unbreakable. Somehow.
It's never or now."
I've already made the decision to embrace the now.
I just wish the now felt a bit more stable.
Alright (violently shakes head from side to side).
Enough with the fear.
Enough with the doubt.
Enough with the self pity!
It's time to channel a better version of "Now or Never."
Kendrick Lamar... take it away!
"Look at the newer me, fate pursuing me.
I can feel the energy in the air.
It feel like I'm supposed to be here...
I know it's my time and it's now or never.
Shine so bright, I light the night.
And it feels so right, ain't nothin' better."